To Be or Not To Be

A little kingdom I possess,
Where thoughts and feelings dwell;
And very hard the task I find
Of governing it well.
~ Louisa May Alcott

...that more or less describes my situation!

~A Wise Man Said~

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.
~ Aristotle
Saturday, December 28, 2019
 
Kabhi kisi ko mukammal jahaan nahin milta
Kahin zameen toh kahin aasmaan nahin milta
~Nida Fazli
 
Roughly translated these lines mean:
No one ever gets a perfect world
Someone doesn't get the earth, someone the sky
This is perhaps the happiest time of the year in general but for some reason it makes me more and more reflective and melancholy every year. I think of the things that could have been and the things that might be lost someday... I guess I could instead think of all the lovely things that have come about and all the wonderful things that might be in store for me. 
To be honest, the last year was much, much better than I could have ever hoped for in one respect... and it inclines me far more positively toward the coming year. Yes, other areas of my life could do with the same good fortune but like the famous Hindi couplet goes, no one ever gets everything... one thing or the other is always missing... I guess I need to count the blessings that I do have rather than focus on the missing bits. Life could have been far less kind to me than it has been and it would be churlish of me not to recognise this kindness... flowing to me from the universe... perhaps we are all given certain kinds of natures that find fulfilment in certain kinds of goals or accomplishments... and it seems to me that the universe has pulled me in a direction that is fitting for who I am... or how I am... I could question why I have to be this way and not like everyone else so I could find happiness in the things that everyone finds happiness in... but that is a meaningless train of thought...At this time of the year, I need to acknowledge the fitness of things in their incompleteness... I might not have a perfect world as indeed no one does... but I sure have been blessed with a world that is near perfect for me... and I need to acknowledge that that is no small thing... and not given to everyone...

posted by Sylvia D'souza at 1:53 pm 0 comments
Sunday, December 08, 2019
 
Truth be told
 
Truth be told
I think of you
More than I
Am supposed to
 
Truth be told
I dream of you
More than you
Might wish me to
 
Truth be told
Not a day goes
When the thought of you
Doesn’t take hold
 
Truth be told
I hate you so
For I’d rather not
Love you more
 

~Me 

posted by Sylvia D'souza at 8:00 pm 0 comments
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