A little kingdom I possess,
Where thoughts and feelings dwell;
And very hard the task I find
Of governing it well.
~ Louisa May Alcott

...that more or less describes my situation!

 
Ambalapady… after a long time, I thought of my favourite place…nostalgic memories came bounding back…my mom has planted almost a whole garden outside the French window of our house…this little shrub of greenery is reminding me of Mangalore and our ancestral home in Ambalapady which is all but locked up, for want of inhabitants…I keep feeling that as time goes by, we go further and further away from our roots—to be closer to what, I don’t know…

Speaking of memories, I watched U, Me Aur Hum yesterday. The central character suffers from Alzheimer’s. After a point, she cannot even remember her dear ones. I found it extremely tragic. Not so much for her, but for the people she loved. Imagine looking into the eyes of the person you love to death, to not see even a spark of recognition. They say only God can understand God’s ways …I have to agree; I can’t.

We were having a very interesting conversation the other day in office (a mini break that wasn’t really mini, in spite of meaningful hints from the Boss). A colleague of mine bumped onto this site that told you what were in your past life. That’s how it all started. We went onto discussing if there is such a thing as ‘past life’ or ‘rebirth’.

I think I have mentioned this in a post before on this blog that I instinctively veer towards the idea of rebirth. I have no idea what tilts me towards this belief, but I find it worth exploring…

A related idea I find interesting is that people are born with a baggage of knowledge and experience gained from previous births. That is why some people (or souls) appear to be more ‘evolved’ or ‘wiser’ than others. This one may argue is because of better education or intelligence or wider experience, but it is not the ‘worldly wisdom’ that we speak of—it is an intuitive wisdom; it is a wisdom that ‘just knows’, without being related to anything one has learnt in this life.

Another idea I have read about and find interesting is—the ‘instant connection’ we feel with certain people. A bond that seems difficult to define. What do we call it? They say it is some shared history, some former association that sparks the feeling of familiarity and bonding. They call it a ‘karmic connection’…as if nature itself brings people together.

These things are certainly strange and bizarre when you think about them … they have no root in reality as we define it or as we are capable of analyzing … but I wonder…how little we really know of life…and how many possibilities exist…
posted by Sylvia D'souza at 10:37 pm 0 comments