To Be or Not To Be

A little kingdom I possess,
Where thoughts and feelings dwell;
And very hard the task I find
Of governing it well.
~ Louisa May Alcott

...that more or less describes my situation!

~A Wise Man Said~

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.
~ Aristotle

Monday, April 07, 2025
 

I have a tendency to frame any explanation or discussion of the particular with the meta. A sort of begin from the beginning. I do it so that the opposite party understands the big picture against which I am viewing the particular thing. If I did not offer that, they won't get my perspective, that's my logic. But what often happens is people are not sure where I am going with what I am saying. They are not comfortable with the 40000-feet view, it makes them dizzy, and they would rather I get to the ground fast. What is funny is I am actually a very to-the-point kind of person. Just that I see a whole lot of dots that are intricately connected to the point and do not believe I can make the point well without revealing all those dots. But it's a rare few people who can see those dots even when you show them so a better strategy might be to take the shorter route. It's a rare few people with whom I care to do the dot-connecting exercise even. Except that sometimes I find myself in the middle of a situation where I need to make a point. But this logic is so hardwired in me that even when I know I am not with my ideal audience, I still can do only what I do. Part of it is that when I am focused on an idea, the world, the audience, the social situation, all disappear. Should it matter? I suppose, being the INTJ personality type that I am (more on this later), it is just how my intuition-thinking expresses itself... it cannot be otherwise. The better question might be whether I'd rather be someone else? And that's an easy one ;)