To Be or Not To Be

A little kingdom I possess,
Where thoughts and feelings dwell;
And very hard the task I find
Of governing it well.
~ Louisa May Alcott

...that more or less describes my situation!

~A Wise Man Said~

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.
~ Aristotle
Monday, September 16, 2019
 
So, dear readers… if you followed my last post you will understand when I say that I write from a new abode… yes, I have shifted… bag, baggage and soul… and I have to say that I have done more physical exertion in the last two days than I have done in the last two months… I am pretty lazy when it comes to physical labour… or rather I simply focus on exerting myself in areas where my strengths lie ;) …I feel a heavy sense of relief now because the anticipation of physical exertion, the change, the mess, the chaos of disorganised stuff, the newness and things not to my liking… well, suffice to say that I feel like I have been moving in my head for at least a month though the actual shifting occurred in the space of two days…

I did mention I would have new flatmates but luckily they will arrive a week or more from now… I am quite glad that that is the case because it gives me time to do the all-important familiarisation and routinisation in my own way… I imagine I will have to adapt a bit differently when other people enter the equation but I think it gives me the much needed edge of feeling at home which would have been difficult to do if I was the new one… in a way I have had this rather weird feeling like I am one of the ‘housemates’ in the Big Boss’ (like Big Brother in the UK) house... I am the first member to arrive, and like me, everyone would be curious about who the other housemates are…what I am going to hate the most is ‘small talk’… it’s a strange feeling but guess as usual I am overthinking…

The other rather not-so-happy thing for me is that all this mental and physical uncertainty is not good for my work focus… I know myself well so knew it would be so and was expecting a slow down if not a shut down for a few days… even so I can’t help feel the anxiety of not having done as much as I think I should have… trying to stay positive with the thought that at last now I have opened up a Word doc (even if to write a blog ;)) so it means I am going to be on track pretty soon… It also means that the conditions for ‘work’ have been set up in this home… so guess there is reason to hope that all may be well yet…

posted by Sylvia D'souza at 3:52 am 0 comments
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