So, dear readers… if you
followed my last post you will understand when I say that I write from a new
abode… yes, I have shifted… bag, baggage and soul… and I have to say that I
have done more physical exertion in the last two days than I have done in the
last two months… I am pretty lazy when it comes to physical labour… or rather I
simply focus on exerting myself in areas where my strengths lie ;) …I feel a
heavy sense of relief now because the anticipation of physical exertion, the
change, the mess, the chaos of disorganised stuff, the newness and things not
to my liking… well, suffice to say that I feel like I have been moving in my
head for at least a month though the actual shifting occurred in the space of
two days…
I did mention I would have new
flatmates but luckily they will arrive a week or more from now… I am quite glad
that that is the case because it gives me time to do the all-important
familiarisation and routinisation in my own way… I imagine I will have to adapt
a bit differently when other people enter the equation but I think it gives me the
much needed edge of feeling at home which would have been difficult to do if I was
the new one… in a way I have had this rather weird feeling like I am one of the
‘housemates’ in the Big Boss’ (like Big Brother in the UK) house... I am the
first member to arrive, and like me, everyone would be curious about who the
other housemates are…what I am going to hate the most is ‘small talk’… it’s a
strange feeling but guess as usual I am overthinking…
The other rather not-so-happy
thing for me is that all this mental and physical uncertainty is not good for
my work focus… I know myself well so knew it would be so and was expecting a
slow down if not a shut down for a few days… even so I can’t help feel the
anxiety of not having done as much as I think I should have… trying to stay
positive with the thought that at last now I have opened up a Word doc (even if
to write a blog ;)) so it means I am going to be on track pretty soon… It also
means that the conditions for ‘work’ have been set up in this home… so guess
there is reason to hope that all may be well yet…
posted by Sylvia D'souza at 3:52 am
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