I sometimes feel the weariness
of life a little too heavily. Most times one goes about one’s activities
casually or determinedly never really thinking or pausing to think about the
larger purpose, about where all this is leading to, about where we are all
headed, about what tomorrow may be expected to bring and how I would expect to
cope… but sometimes…sometimes you take a pause albeit to rest but the mind
wanders to these sorts of questions and then you realise why it’s easier to be
busy or to do something, anything… as long as you are doing something or
involved in something or feeling like you are being productive in some way,
life passes, it goes on…one activity to the next, one goal to the next, you
move along… but pausing and thinking can be dangerous… it can take the joy out
of the activity too because now you’re doing it with full awareness of how
meaningless it is… you have to put extra effort to numb the awareness or to
trick yourself into believing in meaning, in a larger purpose, in a design… and
you serving some purpose in this grand design…you have to hold onto that
thought somehow… the more you believe in it the more you are able to invest in
your activity-filled life with some semblance of passion… and that is perhaps
for the best… because what would be the alternative?
posted by Sylvia D'souza at 4:38 am
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