To Be or Not To Be

A little kingdom I possess,
Where thoughts and feelings dwell;
And very hard the task I find
Of governing it well.
~ Louisa May Alcott

...that more or less describes my situation!

~A Wise Man Said~

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.
~ Aristotle

Friday, April 17, 2020
 
I wouldn’t mind being judged by you… but I would like to know your judgement…even if it is stark, harsh, cruel, unjustified, unmerited…I would want to know…I would find it easier in my mind to perceive myself as you perceive me…and then if I give a defence or offer offense…at least I know that I have a mark to hit…but to let me be blind…while you smile…falsely, deceitfully…mocking me or ridiculing me in your head…that I cannot abide…that I would not do to an opponent…because even a fight…must be fought with integrity…that’s what I think…that’s what is due to you…and that’s the due you must give to me…not as a friend, but even as a worthy adversary or at least a fellow human…better a worthy adversary though than a hypocritical friend…May I have more of those…