To Be or Not To Be

A little kingdom I possess,
Where thoughts and feelings dwell;
And very hard the task I find
Of governing it well.
~ Louisa May Alcott

...that more or less describes my situation!

~A Wise Man Said~

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.
~ Aristotle

Thursday, May 21, 2020
 

I have been here before
This exact moment
This moment of asking
Not begging or pleading
But feeling
Like reaching out
Come to my aid
Be there for me
I need you
In this dark hour
Just a nudge
On my back
Or a reassuring
Pat 

It will be okay
We will get through this
Together
You will say
Count on me
I have seen you
Toil and worry
Put your blood and sweat
All you've got
In your labours
I will stand by you
See you through
Take no heed
Of the mountain ahead
You have it in you 

But these words never come
Nothing even close
I have been here
Disillusioned
Disappointed
Familiar territory
Not even empty words
Or superficial gestures
Instead
Just a laugh
Or snigger 

You know what
You are on your own
How presumptuous
You are
To expect more
Have you not learnt
Anything
From those moments
Gone before
Gather yourself
Stand up
Don't ask. Don't beg
Don't make a case
It's all on you 

I have been here, yes
I will get through
All on my own
Because
I always do...

~Me