The new academic year has rolled in. Other than the chillier air outside everything seems rather different for this time of the year. Like we have all retreated into the internet and we can only reach out to each other in this artificial mode. To me the calendar seems to have stopped after last December when I came back from Dubai… and it seems another dimension of the surreal that I am going to be facing December again. What happened in between… nothing and everything… I know I write these posts longing for the old normal off and on…but I do long for it. I guess the passing of time which when I was much younger never weighed on me seems like another weight to bear. In a game one would expect to get a time-out or something if one took a break or expect the timer to be stopped when one is not engaging in activity, but there is no stopping the universal clock. We may make no use of all this time but it is still being counted… we are still getting older, by the day or month or year. It sort of makes me think about the fact that I never really thought about making time count when it wasn’t held hostage like it is now… it’s not like I was living every minute of it though I guess living every minute of it in someone else’s sense is not what I would do with it even if I had a free run of it now… but what I mean is mental freedom or the freedom to do what one liked, go where one liked, or just experience the normal routines of life… one can want the normal and mundane as much as one can want the exciting and adventurous, can one not? And one never thinks that even the normal and mundane will not be possible so this snatching away of it does make one think about it as one never thought before.

Speaking of routines, I have been sort of feeling a bit more debbie downish in the past week or so. Last year around this time I wrote about my new housemates and how it all turned out for the better… I was not expecting new housemates this time though there was every reason for me to expect them and as usual I resisted the change with all my might by settling into a sad mood. I couldn’t have gone on forever in this state so I am back to looking at the situation’s brighter side… it is brighter to be honest. I’ll perhaps reserve more about it for one of my next posts :)