To Be or Not To Be

A little kingdom I possess,
Where thoughts and feelings dwell;
And very hard the task I find
Of governing it well.
~ Louisa May Alcott

...that more or less describes my situation!

~A Wise Man Said~

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.
~ Aristotle

Monday, November 16, 2020
 

Validation. Why do we need it? Why do we want people to acknowledge our gestures, to make us feel like we matter, make us believe that they care, make us valuable in our own eyes in a sense? Why? Isn't it quite enough that I know, just know, that I do matter... not to a person or someone but that my existence is not a fluke, an accident, an aberration. It is determined, it is deliberate, it is designed, it mattered enough. It might seem like I am saying that I matter to God and maybe it boils down to it if you look at it this way, but my counterpoint is that if all this is untrue and I do not matter to God and thereby I am nothing and no one in the scheme of things, then, I do not matter at all. My mattering to another human being would not have much significance in this state of affairs either because we would be both meaningless in the grand design. Can one mouse validate another...? Well, nor could we validate each other if we were akin to mice...but if we are something much more, then I come validated into the world already and if I seek validation then my internal validation should be as good as any external one. It would after all be invested in me by a higher power.