You know when you have
one of those days when the universe doesn't seem to be just telling you
something but shaking you violently and making you listen? Well, today was one
of those days.
In the first instance
I realised that I had put myself into a position—yes, I myself had put myself
into this position, unknowingly of course—where any random person who was
neither my better nor even equal nor whom I was paid to report to could boss me
around! I have an utter dislike of being bossed around (which is ironic because
some could say I tend to boss around, but that's beside the point here) and
even my bosses, thank God for them, have never bossed me around. I realised
random people were now in a position to think they could boss me around and I
couldn't do a thing about it. The fact that the person is not someone I should
even give the time of the day to normally should be able to do this made me
bristle.
In the second instance
something of the same kind happened. Something even my boss wouldn't do in a
million years a random person was able to inflict on me, and what is more, I
had to bear this imposition calmly. The fact that apart from not being my boss
or better what they did was in itself extremely unfair and based on an
evaluation that was contradictory to everything I had stood for till that
moment, was a double shock. And to think that I had in a way transferred power
to them who could not only inflict such decisions or actions on me in cold
blood but whose decisions or actions could affect me to this degree made me
bristle again.
I decided not to act
spontaneously or impulsively even though I was bristling to the tips of my
fingers apart from the fact that I hadn’t recovered fully from the shock. I
decided to do what I always do—make a plan. The one thing that I cannot allow
is for random people to think they can boss me around, and the second thing is,
I cannot allow random people to disturb my emotional equilibrium. They have not
earned it. So yes, the universe is telling me something. I am listening.
posted by Sylvia D'souza at 7:47 am
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