To Be or Not To Be

A little kingdom I possess,
Where thoughts and feelings dwell;
And very hard the task I find
Of governing it well.
~ Louisa May Alcott

...that more or less describes my situation!

~A Wise Man Said~

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.
~ Aristotle

Sunday, October 22, 2023
 

All's well! I should have got down to writing earlier but my usual excuse, 'one thing and another' :)

It's not that I haven't written anything at all but it felt like I should be writing something very specific about my new set of temporary circumstances on this blog and whenever there is some specific expectation to do something, it feels like a chore. Not that there is any reason to conform... probably it will come when the mood strikes me - or not. Why do something out of boredom or obligation or conformity or whatever? If only I were a person who just did things very randomly, slave to nothing but my moods, hehe... that's not me but at least once in a while there's no harm letting go of structures and disciplined modes of thinking...

The change from the UK to over here isn't that big a change in the fundamental sense that my routines are fairly constant. I suppose knowing it's a matter of weeks makes a difference too because the routines that are a bit more difficult to adapt to, only need to be adapted to for a little while. I am also fairly busy so rolling from one week to the next without having a lot of time to think about it. And last but not the least, people have made me feel very much at home here. It's always people that make a difference to place I guess, and in that respect, I always realise how lucky I have been only after the fact. In this case, I am trying to be more conscious of it in the moment.

If someone had told me 7-8 years ago that I'd be representing a UK university in China, teaching university students, I would have gawked at them. None of those words, university, teaching, UK, China would have made sense to me together or even separately. As someone said, day by day nothing seems to change, but when you look back everything's different. Just makes me wonder at how far I have come!