Still in a bit of a shock as I write this. I generally tend to think of all the worst possible outcomes in a situation, but you know what, fate is way more unpredictable and creative than I am. The worstest thing possible and the worstest time when it could be the worstiest of all, was something that I really didn't think of. And that's what happened with my 'house' situation. Not only can I no longer have the house—which by the way I had my heart set on and wasn't just a house—I also literally have to move house next week with no house to move to! Now take that, is what fate is saying I am sure! ;) People think I am joking when I say that things never ever happen smoothly for me. I know that that's how it is because of past patterns and therefore I plan for all sorts of obstacles. But this one has blown me off. Again! I have no backup plans. When I got the email that conveyed this news to me, my brain just went numb. One part of it was grappling with losing something that I thought was going to be my new dwelling for a while. I already loved it. In one of my recent posts I had mentioned how I am moving out of campus after 9 whole years! Another part of it was thinking through the practical stuff. Where am I to go next week? What are my options? I don't know at this point. I never 'go with the flow' but what do you do when you are pushed into the flow literally? At this level of turmoil, I almost feel calm…hehe!  Or maybe just frozen... like a deer caught in the headlights... As usual, I am trying to find the lesson in all this, trying to look for what God is trying to tell me, what sign is the universe giving me... maybe it will all make sense at some point in the future, wherever I am at then...