To Be or Not To Be

A little kingdom I possess,
Where thoughts and feelings dwell;
And very hard the task I find
Of governing it well.
~ Louisa May Alcott

...that more or less describes my situation!

~A Wise Man Said~

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.
~ Aristotle

Sunday, January 25, 2026
 

I went to the carpet shop yesterday to find out why no one contacted me after visiting my house to take measurements in September. I had been away almost three months so maybe the person who came over did contact me? I went in asking for him. Nothing had prepared me for the answer I was given. That person had passed away in December. I was shocked to say the least! He wasn't that old. I was told he was in his mid-50s and had a heart attack. His wife, the lady who worked in the shop with him, said she was crumbling inside but had to carry on... for their four children. She had known her husband for more than 30 years. I couldn't even begin to fathom her grief... couldn't begin to imagine what it must feel like to suddenly lose someone who was such a solid part of your life for so long... like one day you wake up and they are just not around? Nothing in place of this moving, thinking, feeling, loving, caring being who was there all the time, a part of your own world? Just a large gaping void now that could never be filled. How do you cope with this...? I do not know...

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On a lighter note... they sent another person to do the measurements for the carpet today. He was one of those cheeky old characters. When looking at one option versus another, he said something about entertaining people in the house. I said I am not much of an entertainer ;) To which he said, I can't believe that for one moment! Hehe! [Not sure what made him not believe me :/)]